I’ve been feeling a bit lost and muddled this past while. I’m at a point in my life where the routines that I have strived to perfect for the past half of a decade are being challenged. You see, change has never been easy for me. I have always clung to sameness until my knuckles have turned white. I consistently refer to myself as a creature of comfort, and so having to move on from a chapter of my life that took me so long to read (and was only beginning to understand) has me feeling like I’ve just been blindfolded and spun around a handful of times. I keep picturing myself holding my breath as I stand strangely still in front of a something that feels like a cliff to fall off of, or a mountain to climb all at the same time.
I know that change is an inherent part of life and I know that close to 23 years of existence should have conditoned me to deal with all of this better — but I’m not. And so until I sort myself out, I’m going to continue to search for little reminders that will ground me when I feel like this feeling in my chest is going to force me to lift off out of the stratosphere and into the fiery reigns of the burning sun.
These bible verses I’ve doodled into wallpapers have been helping me ease the chaos raging in my head. It is my hope that they remind you that nothing is ever as bad as it seems, as long as you have Christ by your side.